Goals

I did not actually believe that I'd be able to reach this point in my life where I would find time to convey my thoughts concerning my goals this year. Well here they are and changes will probably occur throughout the year and I probably won't succeed on a lot of these goals...but here goes nothing!


1. I want to be nicer this year. This probably seems either vague, hilarious, unnecessary, or impossible depending on who you are. Well, I've been wavering between being ridiculously pushover-y and being sarcastic, sadistic, and pointy humored. Most times I'm both and I don't mean any of the things I say, but I still feel like someone's going to get hurt or extremely annoyed if I keep this up. So I would like to settle with something less extreme and be more consistent about it. Enough about that...slap me if you see me being sarcastic or something :P

2. I want to be more extroverted. Throughout the past year, I basically threw away my social life to focus on my studies...a choice I am not so happy about this year. I guess it would be more accurate to say I want to throw away some of my self-consciousness and be more willing to talk to people without pre-judging them or having biases. I want to be able to talk to people more freely, including my closer friends.

3. I want to be uncomfortable. I guess this goes into being more extroverted and being out of my comfort zone to get to know new people. I know Dean has been encouraging us as seniors to venture out this year and he's been asking what our legacy is. Well, I really want to follow what he says and try to get to know people and live out my life more meaningfully. :)

4. I want to work hard at my music. Even if it's just for fun, I want to be the best singer that I can be. I also want to improve on my piano and sight reading skills. And of course, harmonization. How much of this will come true, who knows? But we can only look forward to that.

5. I want to actively maintain the friendships that I have. I feel a lot of my relationships with others have gone down the drain mostly because I have a fear of being close to people I don't see often, mostly because I am scared of how people may change. I hope I will take more initiative and maintain friendships with people if not get closer.

6. Well, I definitely want to improve on my foreign languages. This includes my chinese (getting a bit rusty), my japanese (almost nonexistent currently), and korean (which is probably better than it should be...but still not good). I would definitely love the chance to practice them and use them in the actual country.

7. I want to earn money and have a job (law firm namely). Hopefully, I will be able to do something meaningful with that money. Like going to Asia...Or something else.

8. I want be more fit. Not necessarily more buff, but less fat percentage would definitely be nice. And I want to play badminton more legitly and not be all blah at it.

9. I definitely want to pursue God more directly and be motivated. Notice how this goal is toward the end of my goals...Let's be honest, I haven't been very active in my faith and what's worse, I feel as though I've been faking my sincerity although I know the truth. I have not been facing my problems or even trying. I don't know how many times I've told myself this, but I really try to do my best to read my bible more consistently and prayer journal and stuff. Be good role model?

10. How could I forget? I want to be able to maintain this blog for as long as I can (hopefully for this year and for the rest of my life? :O...shocking thought).

11. Ooh, this is a really iffy one. Get into a relationship? Heh heh...don't exactly want to put it as a goal, but at the same time it would be nice. This is all from my view of course. I don't know what is going to happen this year, but I'm just saying I'll be looking out. I guess the worst part of this is that I don't expect it to last, but yeah...I don't know. Maybe God wants something different for me. But just putting this out there!

Well, that's all I want to bother think about right now...and it's no short list either. Maybe I'll come up with some smaller perk goals that aren't so serious...not that all those goals up there are serious. O well, enjoy and keep me accountable! Hope to update on my school life and thoughts soon. Toodles!

x3 Graceee